okayy soooo recently alot of ppl have been telling me that i needa open up and stop putting up a wall. and im like okae ill try. then i finally start telling ppl how i feel and they go around what i say. ughhh. thats bullshit!
but okae so alot is on my mind and in tryna figure out how to tell certain ppl. well one im getting sick of my boyfriend. like sometimes i feel like he puts HIMSELF before the relationship. and im like most of the decisions yu make are gunaa effect both of us not just yu. and to me thats freaking selfish but i dont say nothing bcuss when i start tp tell ppl how i feel i come off as like a mean person but i dont mean too. but anyways back to tha topic.... like i was saying [typing] yeah i know i love him but at the time im getting fed up with him doing what he wants to do. and its like well i be wanting to chill with alot of my "guy" friends but i thinkk like well will he be comfortable with it. and most of the time the answer is NO so i dont. but i dont think he seems to think like that. maybe bcus hes a boy and boyss are doodoo headss. but whatever. i dont give a fuck anymore ima just let him do what he wants bcuss in the end of the day ---- YUR GUNNA DO WATCHUU WANT ANYWAYS!!!
