yu knoe what... its about 6 in tha morning and i woke up [well i wasnt really sleep] to my dog scrathng on my door so he could go outside and take a piss. soo i go downstair turn the alarm off and walkout and stand for a few minutes then i just cry and cry and cry. this is the hardest ive ever cryed in awhile. like i honestly cryed until i couldnt cry anymore and then i get mad ; asking myself like how stupid am i? and wtf is wrong with me? and why? then i cryed some more and that was how i was for tha rest of the time being. ayee wanna knoe why my emotionss are suddenly on highh voltage.? Well.... as yu knoe currently im single. but right before that decision was made up i..... cheated on my boyfriendd. and we still talk so it was only right that i tell him whetha we're togetha or not. but yeahh i dont really feel like going into details abt tha incident but so uhm yeah last night i went to his house to talk and yu really really dont understand how hard it is for someone like me to look at the person i love in tha face ; in tha eyes while they are telling me they dont know if they still wanna be with me. like as soon as he said that i felt like dying like i dont have no more reason to still be standing here. and i know all the sorries in the worl wont make-up for i did but at tha same time im only human and i make mistakes. and im hoping and praying this mistake wont cost me someone who i love.
its like yu knoe when yu get yur 1st pair of real name brand type of clothing... yu try and try not to mess up or anything but when yu finally do its like "damn i fucked my shit up" ; and thats exactly the words that went thru my mind on the way back home last nite.
Bae: if yur reading this... please know that it was a mistake... and im sorry and i knoe i cant change the fact that i did what i did. but honestly i am sorry. yu knoe how yu always ask me do i think yu deserve me well i think i deserve yu but yu dont deserve me. yu deserve better and maybe im just not that person who can really give yu that. ima respect whatever decision yu make ; whetha yu want me back or not. i may not like it but ill understand the reasons why yu chose that decision. but i am sorry okae; and i love yu and i knoe yu probably still mad at me and i understand why yu are mad. but i just wanna let yu knoe that i really do caree even though yu may think i dont.
but uhmm this is it... uhh peacee.
